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Awakening
04:28
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I’m lying here
Under these trees
I am awake
The fear that seized
me is gone: the sun appears
Surrounding heat
After these years
No troubles left
Wiped away my tears
They are gone, for this day - gone
I hope that the pain will not return again
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2. |
The Deep Forest
12:20
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Every dream that I dream
Is leading me back to that place
I can imagine the scene
Can see the pain in your blank face
When I’m awake I am strong
I can control my thoughts
But in my dreams I am fragile
I can’t take control
The reason why I end up here all night
is crystal clear: your god damn suicide
Why have you left without a last good bye
I'm here without you and only you know the reason why
How can I subscribe these questions in my mind
Will I ever find any way out
I am afraid all alone, cause I can't hear no sound
No sound at all, the silence is killing me
And I – I can't refrain
From all these pictures in my head – how you’ve been found
And still I hear no sound
Now I can sense the silence that you sought
In this dark forrest of feelings I am caught
The bony boughs where no bird cares to sing
Are swallowed up by darkness – the bringer of a deadly undertaking
How can I subscribe these questions in my mind
Will I ever find any way out
I am afraid all alone, cause I can't hear no sound
No sound at all, the silence is killing me
And I – I can't refrain
From all these pictures in my head – how you’ve been found
And still I hear no sound
(Voice of Fear):
Who woke me up
Fear and sickness is what you get
You should better stop
I’m growing with your heartbeat
Finally awake again
Got lots of work to do
Do you sense my breath
I am the fear within you
(Lost Person):
I thought I could forget what happened but
This evil voice is coming closer
I wish that I could hide, but I cannot
What do you want from me
(Voice of Fear):
You can’t resist me
And won’t get out of here
Oooaaah, by the way
Let’s come to the point
It is you I want
I’ll crush you from within
I am a rogue
And not your dreamcatcher
(Lost Person):
I wish I could have been there at that day
I wish I could have had the chance to cry
But now these nightmares never end
These voices torture me:
I don’t really know the answer
I ask the voice
(Speak)
Why do you pursue me
(Voice of Fear):
I am the sickness, coldness, horror, fear
Don’t understand me
I will tell you, listen:
Hunting human beings
Staying with the weak ones
Causing trouble in their minds
I get my satisfaction
(Lost Person):
Go away from me
Please, can you spare my thoughts
I will pay you every price
If you let my soul alive
I am too weak to resist you
(Voice of Fear):
Hunting human beings
Staying with the weak ones
Causing trouble in their minds
I get my satisfaction
Hunting human beings
Staying with the weak ones
Causing trouble in your mind
I get my satisfaction (laughs)
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3. |
Desperation
05:24
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That voice of fear has vanished
Just like you were banished
From this world of ours, by your own hand
But you could not care less
I can only guess
Which wall was to high to climb ?
I know it’s hard from time to time
I had a lot to carry by myself but I was in self-doubt
Did I miss your helpless shout ?
This causes my desperation
I hate this state of mind
So my dreams end here
I try to stand tall but I crawl
Back in a deeper sleep I fall
Is it my guilt, my fault, my duty
That we didn’t meet for years
That I didn’t call or write you
I have no clue
Why I haven’t shifted gears
Now I (just) taste my tears
I haven’t felt guilty in the past
Cause time is a healer, and time runs fast
But now I blame myself for being absent
Was I not there for you at last
Now my chance has passed
This causes my desperation
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4. |
Light
01:50
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Without a warning the ambience is silent
And suddenly I recognize a spot of light
I am smoothly hit by sunrays and I realize:
Not only is my body getting warm, but my soul
The heat even touches my thoughts and it takes control
And it feels so soft
And it tastes so sweet
And it sounds so smooth
And I feel complete
Suddenly hell breaks loose inside my head
Suddenly I feel the blood rushing through my veins
And I feel fine, in the glow of that light
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5. |
Voices From Heaven
13:25
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Beside that bright light in my mind
I hear a whisper - soft and kind
Where is it from ? I have become
pleased and contended, theres no need to run
Bad times leave scars
They define who we are
Like a sign they can show
which way we have to go
When we were young, the songs that we sung
made us feel happy, nothing felt wrong
We drove down the road with heavy load
That was our burden, so we were told
All of the sudden I hear a voice, sweet as a bird and I see there’s a choice
I recall the good times – the comfort you gave – Why did you leave ?
I can hear a voice, sweet and innocent
I see there is a choice, it must be heaven sent
I can hear them and they sound like some crystal snowflakes falling down
Voices – like a legion of angels leading me the way
Now who are these voices, talking to me, while I was lying there
Looking from the ground into the sky...
Was it god ? An angel ? Or was it nature ? The elements ?
Maybe the fire, the wind and the rain ? Or is it me ?
Who were these voices, talking to me
While I was watching the sky
Maybe the fire, the wind and the rain ? Or is it me ?
I can hear a voice, sweet and innocent
I see there is a choice, it must be heaven sent
I can hear them and they sound like some crystal snowflakes falling down
Voices – like a legion of angels leading me the way
Voices from heaven calling
And they beat like a drum
They are there - but as if they’re dead
Cause these voices - are in my head
My horizon has broken, my awareness has increased
You have made your peace
Finally – I’m feeling free
My inner voice Is talking to me
I’ve learned to listen – and I found the key
I trust myself, but open-minded like the sky
And then I stand up, these words sound so clear
These voices are loud, but I have no fear
They’re guiding my way
And I carry on... I carry on...
Suddenly, hell broke loose inside my head
Suddenly, I feel the blood rushing through my veins and I feel fine
Suddenly, that voices washed away the rain
Suddenly, I just feel pleasure instead of pain....
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6. |
No Way Out
07:07
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And once again my dreams change
They lost their shape and all their beauty
Now I see myself through your eyes
And I can nearly feel your cruelty
I can’t forgive you but at least I see the warning.
Never give up though it seems there’s no way out
(Spoken):
Although we had so much in common, I can’t understand your decision
But right now I can sense your distress
What is the way?
The way that I must find and go alone
I have no guide to trust to keep me strong
What if truth was only fiction and went wrong ...
Is this all reality?
Here is my sorrow
I feel there's no way out
Where was your hope, your will to live
why was there no one to release you from your pain
to break your chains
I can't explain – why weren’t you as strong as me
I can’t forgive you but at least I see the warning:
Never give up, though it seems there’s no way out
(Spoken):
I hope I’ll always find my way out and no matter how hard it gets
I know … I could never do what you did
What is the way?
The way that I must find and go alone
I have no guide to trust to keep me strong
What if truth was only fiction and went wrong ...
Is this all reality?
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7. |
The Mire
04:51
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Far away the darkest clouds disappear
The full moon glows in all its beauty
This mire I reach is daunting
It does not reflect the light of the stars
The branches and reeds they look like scars
This scene is full of emptiness
Silent water, cut by screams
Screams of a human soul
Locked by invisible walls
Lost in a sea of lies
Screaming until it dies
Dark clouds do return
(They bury all the light inside me)
My heart starts to burn
Moonlight disappears
Welcoming my fears
Screams of a human soul
Locked up by invisible walls
Lost in a sea of lies
Screaming until it dies
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8. |
Death Of A Dream
15:59
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The screams I've heard, an echo of pain - I can not defend it
I can't resist, so shut up - return - I don't care who sent it
If I wake up from this misery, I will never go back
I will give in if that's what it takes - to feel free again
No doubt, I will get out here alive and I will be aware
I know it is illusion - in fact a returning nightmare
Unreal, fiction - I can not believe in the things that I saw
How can I wake up and feel free again...
So I decide to leave that place
Hope is the last to go
All that I embrace
Do I really dream at all
Can't remember when/how I fell asleep
(I face demons) ever calling me to sleep
And I decide which visions are dead and those I keep
If this is not like present or real, how do I get control?
Can I somehow live in a dream, to climb out of this hole
I tried running, legs heavy as lead, not a thing I could do
I tried screaming, not able to call, no way to break through
So I try to stay passive and calm, but my actions still fail
Maybe if I stop, sit quietly, there's a chance I'll prevail
I cry craven, I give up and say - no steps left I can take
I accept there is nothing I can do to escape
Though I can never leave this place
Still hope is the last to know
All that I embrace
A dream can't drive me insane
And I know the moment I awake again
I will face dark nights and falling as I sleep
And I decide which visions are dead and those I keep
All of a sudden, quite unexpectedly
I can smell the fresh linen that's wrapped around me
Safely protected I'm lying in my bed
It's hard to believe, but these voices in my head are dead
I observe the room - my eyes wander and roam
I realize I am definitely at home !
(Voice Of Fear):
Hahaha... Do you really think that
I am really gone now
Just because you opened up your eyes
I'm not ever gone - are you surprised?
I'm the fear within you, I will never disappear
I am a basic emotion
I will ambush you, lead you down the garden path
I'll come over you
Even If you not expect me to...
Like a wave I will flood your mind
I will wash away your pride/self-esteem/dignity
Believe me : I'll be back!
What I have learned now from my different nightmares
Wherever there's a shadow there must be a light as well
Some decisions that we make
They can be like long mistakes
And they lead to consequences we must take
Is it right , is it wrong ?
Am I weak, am I strong ?
I can't divine
But I give you a lore to take along:
Don't throw away that life you've been given
There is a greater thruth inside
Even if your dream has died
And if a cruel twist of fate
has tipped your steady state
a closed door is also an open gate
Instead of waking to a dying dream
I'll face each challenge and learn from all that I've seen
And in moments when I fail
My soul is not for sale
I know: “For narrow is the door and hard the road to life”
Is it right , is it wrong ?
Am I weak, am I strong ?
I’ll never know
But I can tell you the road I’ll travel on
Don't throw away that life you've been given
There is a greater truth inside
Even if my dream has died
And if a cruel twist of fate
has tipped my steady state
a closed door is also my open gate
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