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1.
Awakening 04:28
I’m lying here Under these trees I am awake The fear that seized me is gone: the sun appears Surrounding heat After these years No troubles left Wiped away my tears They are gone, for this day - gone I hope that the pain will not return again
2.
Every dream that I dream Is leading me back to that place I can imagine the scene Can see the pain in your blank face When I’m awake I am strong I can control my thoughts But in my dreams I am fragile I can’t take control The reason why I end up here all night is crystal clear: your god damn suicide Why have you left without a last good bye I'm here without you and only you know the reason why How can I subscribe these questions in my mind Will I ever find any way out I am afraid all alone, cause I can't hear no sound No sound at all, the silence is killing me And I – I can't refrain From all these pictures in my head – how you’ve been found And still I hear no sound Now I can sense the silence that you sought In this dark forrest of feelings I am caught The bony boughs where no bird cares to sing Are swallowed up by darkness – the bringer of a deadly undertaking How can I subscribe these questions in my mind Will I ever find any way out I am afraid all alone, cause I can't hear no sound No sound at all, the silence is killing me And I – I can't refrain From all these pictures in my head – how you’ve been found And still I hear no sound (Voice of Fear): Who woke me up Fear and sickness is what you get You should better stop I’m growing with your heartbeat Finally awake again Got lots of work to do Do you sense my breath I am the fear within you (Lost Person): I thought I could forget what happened but This evil voice is coming closer I wish that I could hide, but I cannot What do you want from me (Voice of Fear): You can’t resist me And won’t get out of here Oooaaah, by the way Let’s come to the point It is you I want I’ll crush you from within I am a rogue And not your dreamcatcher (Lost Person): I wish I could have been there at that day I wish I could have had the chance to cry But now these nightmares never end These voices torture me: I don’t really know the answer I ask the voice (Speak) Why do you pursue me (Voice of Fear): I am the sickness, coldness, horror, fear Don’t understand me I will tell you, listen: Hunting human beings Staying with the weak ones Causing trouble in their minds I get my satisfaction (Lost Person): Go away from me Please, can you spare my thoughts I will pay you every price If you let my soul alive I am too weak to resist you (Voice of Fear): Hunting human beings Staying with the weak ones Causing trouble in their minds I get my satisfaction Hunting human beings Staying with the weak ones Causing trouble in your mind I get my satisfaction (laughs)
3.
Desperation 05:24
That voice of fear has vanished Just like you were banished From this world of ours, by your own hand But you could not care less I can only guess Which wall was to high to climb ? I know it’s hard from time to time I had a lot to carry by myself but I was in self-doubt Did I miss your helpless shout ? This causes my desperation I hate this state of mind So my dreams end here I try to stand tall but I crawl Back in a deeper sleep I fall Is it my guilt, my fault, my duty That we didn’t meet for years That I didn’t call or write you I have no clue Why I haven’t shifted gears Now I (just) taste my tears I haven’t felt guilty in the past Cause time is a healer, and time runs fast But now I blame myself for being absent Was I not there for you at last Now my chance has passed This causes my desperation
4.
Light 01:50
Without a warning the ambience is silent And suddenly I recognize a spot of light I am smoothly hit by sunrays and I realize: Not only is my body getting warm, but my soul The heat even touches my thoughts and it takes control And it feels so soft And it tastes so sweet And it sounds so smooth And I feel complete Suddenly hell breaks loose inside my head Suddenly I feel the blood rushing through my veins And I feel fine, in the glow of that light
5.
Beside that bright light in my mind I hear a whisper -  soft and kind Where is it from ? I have become  pleased and contended,  theres no need to run Bad times leave scars They define who we are Like a sign they can show which way we have to go When we were young, the songs that we sung made us feel happy, nothing felt wrong We drove down the road with heavy load That was our burden, so we were told All of the sudden I hear a voice, sweet as a bird and I see there’s a choice I recall the good times – the comfort you gave – Why did you leave ? I can hear a voice, sweet and innocent I see there is a choice, it must be heaven sent I can hear them and they sound like some crystal snowflakes falling down Voices – like a legion of angels leading me the way Now who are these voices, talking to me, while I was lying there Looking from the ground into the sky... Was it god ? An angel ? Or was it nature ? The elements ? Maybe the fire, the wind and the rain ? Or is it me ? Who were these voices, talking to me While I was watching the sky Maybe the fire, the wind and the rain ? Or is it me ? I can hear a voice, sweet and innocent I see there is a choice, it must be heaven sent I can hear them and they sound like some crystal snowflakes falling down Voices – like a legion of angels leading me the way Voices from heaven calling And they beat like a drum They are there - but as if they’re dead Cause these voices - are in my head My horizon has broken, my awareness has increased You have made your peace Finally – I’m feeling free My inner voice Is talking to me I’ve learned to listen – and I found the key I trust myself, but open-minded like the sky And then I stand up, these words sound so clear These voices are loud, but I have no fear They’re guiding my way And I carry on... I carry on... Suddenly, hell broke loose inside my head Suddenly, I feel the blood rushing through my veins and I feel fine Suddenly, that voices washed away the rain Suddenly, I just feel pleasure instead of pain....
6.
No Way Out 07:07
And once again my dreams change They lost their shape and all their beauty Now I see myself through your eyes And I can nearly feel your cruelty I can’t forgive you but at least I see the warning. Never give up though it seems there’s no way out (Spoken): Although we had so much in common, I can’t understand your decision But right now I can sense your distress What is the way? The way that I must find and go alone I have no guide to trust to keep me strong What if truth was only fiction and went wrong ... Is this all reality? Here is my sorrow I feel there's no way out Where was your hope, your will to live why was there no one to release you from your pain to break your chains I can't explain – why weren’t you as strong as me I can’t forgive you but at least I see the warning: Never give up, though it seems there’s no way out (Spoken): I hope I’ll always find my way out and no matter how hard it gets I know … I could never do what you did What is the way? The way that I must find and go alone I have no guide to trust to keep me strong What if truth was only fiction and went wrong ... Is this all reality?
7.
The Mire 04:51
Far away the darkest clouds disappear The full moon glows in all its beauty This mire I reach is daunting It does not reflect the light of the stars The branches and reeds they look like scars This scene is full of emptiness Silent water, cut by screams Screams of a human soul Locked by invisible walls Lost in a sea of lies Screaming until it dies Dark clouds do return (They bury all the light inside me) My heart starts to burn Moonlight disappears Welcoming my fears Screams of a human soul Locked up by invisible walls Lost in a sea of lies Screaming until it dies
8.
The screams I've heard, an echo of pain - I can not defend it I can't resist, so shut up - return - I don't care who sent it If I wake up from this misery, I will never go back I will give in if that's what it takes - to feel free again No doubt, I will get out here alive and I will be aware I know it is illusion - in fact a returning nightmare Unreal, fiction - I can not believe in the things that I saw How can I wake up and feel free again... So I decide to leave that place Hope is the last to go All that I embrace   Do I really dream at all Can't remember when/how I fell asleep (I face demons) ever calling me to sleep And I decide which visions are dead and those I keep    If this is not like present or real, how do I get control? Can I somehow live in a dream, to climb out of this hole I tried running, legs heavy as lead, not a thing I could do I tried screaming, not able to call, no way to break through   So I try to stay passive and calm, but my actions still fail Maybe if I stop, sit quietly, there's a chance I'll prevail  I cry craven, I give up and say - no steps left I can take I accept there is nothing I can do to escape  Though I can never leave this place Still hope is the last to know All that I embrace   A dream can't drive me insane And I know the moment I awake again I will face dark nights and falling as I sleep And I decide which visions are dead and those I keep  All of a sudden, quite unexpectedly I can smell the fresh linen that's wrapped around me Safely protected I'm lying in my bed It's hard to believe, but these voices in my head are dead I observe the room - my eyes wander and roam I realize I am definitely at home ! (Voice Of Fear): Hahaha... Do you really think that I am really gone now   Just because you opened up your eyes  I'm not ever gone - are you surprised?   I'm the fear within you, I will never disappear  I am a basic emotion I will ambush you, lead you down the garden path I'll come over you Even If you not expect me to...  Like a wave I will flood your mind I will wash away your pride/self-esteem/dignity Believe me : I'll be back! What I have learned now from my different nightmares Wherever there's a shadow there must be a light as well Some decisions that we make They can be like long mistakes   And they lead to consequences we must take Is it right , is it wrong ? Am I weak, am I strong ? I can't divine But I give you a lore to take along: Don't throw away that life you've been given There is a greater thruth inside Even if your dream has died   And if a cruel twist of fate has tipped your steady state          a closed door is also an open gate Instead of waking to a dying dream I'll face each challenge and learn from all that I've seen And in moments when I fail My soul is not for sale I know: “For narrow is the door and hard the road to life” Is it right , is it wrong ?  Am I weak, am I strong ? I’ll never know But I can tell you the road I’ll travel on Don't throw away that life you've been given There is a greater truth inside Even if my dream has died   And if a cruel twist of fate has tipped my steady state          a closed door is also my open gate

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“Lost” is a concept album that takes the audience on a personal journey through the mental state of one who is left behind. It processes the emotions and questions he has to face after the suicide of a beloved person.

1 Awakening (4:28)
2 The Deep Forest (12:20)
3 Desperation (5:25)
4 Light (1:51)
5 Voices From Heaven (13:25)
6 No Way Out (7:08)
7 The Mire (4:51)
8 Death Of A Dream - Bonus Track (15:59)

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released February 15, 2014

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